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Louise Erdrich - Fuck with Kayla and You Die

First published in Not Normal, Illinois: Peculiar Fictions from the Flyover, edited by Michael Martone (Quarry Books, 2009):
roman baker stood in the bright and crackling current of light that zipped around in patterned waves underneath the oval canopy entrance to the casino. He wasn't a gambler. The skittering brilliance didn't draw him in and he was already irritated with the piped-out carol music. A twenty, smoothly folded in his pocket, didn't itch him or burn his ass one bit. He had come to the casino because it was just a few days before Christmas and he didn't know how to celebrate. Maybe the electronic bell strum of slot machines would soothe him, or watching the cards spreading from the dealer's hands in arcs and waves. He took a step to the left, toward the cliffs of glass doors.
As he opened his hand to push at the door's brass plate and enter, a white man of medium height and wearing a green leather coat pressed his car keys into Roman's palm. Without waiting for a claim ticket, without even looking at Roman beyond the moment it took to ascertain that he was brown and stood before the doors of an Indian casino, the man walked off and was swallowed into the jingling gloom.
Roman waited before the doors, holding the keys. All of the valets were occupied. He held up the keys. A few seconds later, he put down his hand and clutched the keys in his fist. No one had seen this happen. Roman turned away from the doors, opened his hand, and saw that one shining key among the other keys belonged to a Jeep Cherokee. Immediately, he spotted the white Cherokee parked idling just beyond the lights of the canopy. An amused little voice in his head said go for it. He didn't think it out, just walked over to the car, got in, and drove away.
You couldn't call this stealing, since the guy gave me the keys, Roman told himself, but we are on a slippery slope. He checked at the lighted gauge of the Cherokee, and saw that the tank was nearly empty. There was a Super stop, handy, just down the road. Roman drove up to the bank of pumps and inserted the Cherokee's hose into the gas tank. Eight dollars worth should do it, he thought, and then he wondered. Do what? In the store, he decided he should be methodical, buy something to eat or drink. Afterwards, he would know what to do. The complicated bar of coffee machines drew him, and he stepped up to the grooved aluminum counter, chose a tall white insulated cup, and placed it under a machine's hose labeled French Vanilla. He held the button until the cup was three quarters full, and let the nozzle keep drizzling sweet foam on top. Then he figured out which plastic travel lid matched his cup and pressed it on, over the froth. So as not to burn his hand, he fitted the cup into a little cardboard sleeve. He paid for everything out of his twenty, and walked outside. It was a warm winter night in the middle of a thaw. Bits of moisture hung glittering in the gas-smelling air. There was a very light dust of sparkling fresh snow sinking into the day's brown slush.
"A white Christmas, huh?" said a woman's voice, just to the left.
"Yes, it will be enchanting," Roman answered.
He was the kind of person people spoke to in situations that could easily stay completely impersonal. His face was round, his nose pleasantly blunt, his eyes wide and friendly. His smile was genuine, he had been told. Yet women never stayed with him. Perhaps he was too comfortable, too nurturing, and reminded them of their mothers. Desperate mothers who wanted their children home before dark or wouldn't let them out of sight. Now, in addition to being motherly, plus the kind of person people spoke to on the streets or while pumping their gas, he was the type into whose comfortable palm strange white men trustingly pressed their car keys.
And house keys, too, and other keys. Roman jingled the set before his eyes and then fit the correct car key into the lock. He got into the car and carefully set the cappuccino into the cup holder before he drove to the edge of the parking lot. There, he turned on the dome light and opened the glove compartment. He found the car's registration, folded in a clear plastic sleeve, and the proof of insurance, too, with numbers to call. The owner's name was Torvil J. Morson and his address was 2272 West 195th Street, in the closest suburb. Roman took another drink of the milky, sweet, deadly tasting cappuccino. Then he put the cup back into the holder and drove carefully out of the lot.
The casino was prosperous because it was just far enough from the city to be considered a Destination Resort, and yet close enough so only an hour's quickly diminishing farmland, pine woods, and snowy fields stood between the reservation boundaries and the long stretch of little towns that had blended via strip malls and housing developments into the biggest population center in that part of the Midwest. Roman knew approximately how far he was from 195th street, and it took him exactly the 45 minutes he'd imagined to get there, find the house, and pull into the driveway, which he wouldn't have done unless he'd seen already that the windows were dark. The house was a small one story ranch style painted the same drab green as the jacket of the man who gave Roman the car keys.
Roman got out of the car, walked up to the front door, used the key. Just like that, he entered. Once in, he shut the door behind him and wiped his feet on a rough little welcome mat. The house had its own friendly smell-- slightly stale smoke, cinnamon buns, wet dried sour wool. A powerful streetlight cast a silvery glow through the front picture window. As his eyes adjusted, Roman stepped onto grayish, wall-to-wall carpet, and padded silently across the living room. His heart slowed. The carpeting soothed him. He went straight across the room to the kitchen, divided off by only a counter, and opened the freezer section of the refrigerator. He'd heard that people often kept their jewelry and cash there in case of a burglary or fire. There was a coffee can in the freezer, but it only held ground coffee. A few other promising Tupperware containers held nothing but old stew, alas. Roman shut the insulated door and rubbed his hands together to strike the chill from his fingers. Then he walked down the hall. He stepped into a bedroom, turned on the light. Posters of pop stars, stuffed animals, pencil drawings and dried flowers were taped to the walls. A teenage girl's room. Nothing. He turned out the light and found the master bedroom, the one closest to the bathroom. He was just about to turn on the light when the sound of breathing, or the sense of it, anyway, in the room, stopped his hand.
Then it didn't sound like breathing, but something else, sighing and watery. A fish tank, Roman thought. He listened a bit longer, then switched on the light and saw, on a table next to a window, a small plug-in fountain. The water coursed endlessly over an arrangement of smooth, black stones. Roman thought this must belong to the man's wife. He frowned at himself in the dressing room mirror, and adjusted the lapel of his jacket. The wife, or the teen, or another member of the family might return while he was standing in the lighted bedroom. Yet Roman had no prickles up his back, no darts of fear, no sense of apprehension. In fact, he felt as much at home as if he lived in this house himself. He was even tempted to lie down on the big queen-sized bed neatly made up with a purple quilt and pillows arranged upon pillows. Where had he read about this? Goldilocks! This bed looked comfortable. He thought of the three bears. There was a Mrs. Morson for sure, thought Roman. He pictured a bear meditating by the fountain. A meditator probably wasn't the type who would own gold and diamond jewelry, but he still had to check. There was not a safe on the closet floor, or even a velvety box on the top of the dresser or in the drawer that held underwear. No, there was only underwear, and it was decent, fresh cotton. What am I doing, thought Roman, with my hands in Mrs. Morson's underwear?
He shut the drawer firmly and sat on the edge of the bed.
I'm not going to find any cash, he decided. Mr. Morson has taken it to the casino. Treading down the hall and back across the soft carpet, he felt cheated. What had happened with the car keys was a once-in-a-lifetime thing. Roman had never before done anything that was strictly criminal. But this break-in, where he hadn't had to actually break in, this was given to him. It was as though Mr. Morson had invited him to travel to his house and look for valuables. And nothing there! The house was very still now, the street outside utterly deserted, the neighboring houses dim and shut. Roman sat down on the couch, wishing that he had the rest of his cappuccino, but he'd left the cup in the car. There was a tremendous energy to the quiet, it seemed to him, a seething quality. He felt that he should do something bold, or important, with this piece of fate that he'd been handed. As he was thinking of what he might do, someone knocked on the door. Roman's first instinct was not to answer. But the expectant quality of the silence was too much for him. He went to the door and opened it. There stood a woman and a man, both in coats but wearing no scarves or hats. The woman held a wrapped gift. The man carried a crock-pot out of which there issued a faint and delicious, smoky, bean-soup scent.
"Oh, thank god!"
The woman stepped into the entryway, the man also, both exuding an air of conspiratorial excitement.
"Very clever, keeping the lights off," said the man. "But isn't that his car?"
"He gave me the keys and I just drove it here," Roman told him. The man gave a scratchy laugh that turned into a cough.
"Where should I put this?" He lifted the Crock-Pot slightly.
"In the kitchen?" said Roman.
"Let's put his presents in there, too," said the woman. "You must work with T.J. Have we met?"
"I'm Roman Baker."
"You look like an Indian," said the woman.
"People tell me that!" said Roman.
"Okay, and I'm Willa and that's Buzz with the seven bean soup. It's his specialty. Just the countertop lights! No overhead!"
"Right!" Buzz sounded gleeful. "Is Zola back yet? Did she get the cake?"
"I think so," said Roman. His skull suddenly felt tight, his eyes scratchy and shifty in their sockets. "I feel bad," he mumbled. "I don't have a gift. Maybe I should go out for sodas or beer."
"Oh, T.J. won't notice. T.J. will have a shit fit. I think we should all hide behind the counters and the couch. Will you get the door, Roman?"
"Come on in," said Roman, as he opened the door. "Wipe your feet." Two young men and an older woman stood on the steps. One man carried a neatly foil covered bowl. The other held a large, pale, tissue-wrapped gift.
"We brought Mom," one of the young men squealed, "she's drunk. She's such a hoot!"
"I drank a strawberry wine cooler. I'm loaded," said the elderly lady in a prim and sober voice. "Let me in so I can ditch these two idiots. Does he suspect?" She eyed Roman with a flare of exasperation, her scarlet mouth down-twisted.
"Not in the slightest," Roman told her. He helped her out of her coat while the two young men settled their things in the kitchen.
"Very clever, all the lights out," the lady muttered, "Zola says he'll pee his pants."
"That's pretty much what Willa says, too," Roman told the lady. Steering her toward the couch, he startled himself. A picture formed in his mind. It was himself. Crouched on the carpet. Out of control. Pissing his own pants and howling with surprised mirth.
"They're sending me out for more strawberry wine coolers," he said. He patted the woman's hand.
"You're an Indian," she said, severely and as if imparting information to him.
"A big one," said Roman.
The others in the kitchen were whooping with secretive anticipation. Roman touched the keys in his pocket, walked out the door. As he neared the white Cherokee two more people stepped into the driveway, asked him in low and enthralled voices if anybody else was there.
"Go on in," Roman told them. "Willa and Buzz are organizing everybody."
"Oh God!" said the woman. "I saw his car! I thought he'd got home already. Zola's following us. She'll be here any minute with the cake."
Roman jumped into the car, backed down the driveway, and drove the opposite way down the street from the way he guessed Zola would arrive.
Back on the turnoff to the highway, he thought, right or left? But it was inevitable. He headed toward the casino. The cappuccino was still warm and on the way there he finished it. He started to feel good. Yes, he had been given the Morson's keys, the keys to their life, and he'd visited that life. Enough. Nothing had happened after all. He hadn't taken anything except this car--for a drive. As he neared the vast casino parking lot he slowed and carefully reconnoitered, watching for extra security or flashing lights in case the Cherokee had been reported stolen. But all was bright and calm. Gamblers were walking to and fro, those who had self-parked. Others were waiting with their claim tickets on the swirl patterned carpet in the lobby underneath the lighted canopy. Roman eased the car into a marked space cautiously, far from the activity, and took his empty cappuccino cup with him before he locked the car's door.
That was your little adventure, he told himself. Now what? But he knew what. He walked back to the casino entrance and walked through, into the icy bells and plucking, continual ring that did predictable and pleasurable things to his central nervous system. He breathed faster in excitement. Possibly, the sound depressed left brain action. He felt connected to an irrational and urgent universe of lucky chance. His fingers twitched. First things first. He scanned the seated players looking for the green leather jacket, which was all he remembered about Morson. He decided to make a sweep, starting at the far end of the casino, checking the men's room first. He went up each row and down each row, passed behind each glazed, ghostly player. It took so long that he thought of giving up and simply turning the keys in at the lost and found. But then, there was T.J. Morson, green jacket slung behind him, staring into the lighted tumble of little pirate cove symbols on his machine's curved torso.
Roman tapped his shoulder and Morson waved him off, not to be bothered. Roman watched the man shove in three more quarters and hold his breath. Then sit back, dazed, rub his hand over his face.
Roman touched his shoulder again. "Happy Birthday."
Morson turned and focused on him. His face was clean-cut and perfectly square, a solid Norwegian jawline, pale eyes, hair already white and thin, a little tousled. He was falling into heaviness around the neck and then below, like Roman, it was pretty close to a lost cause. Roman dangled the keys.
"You dropped these, I think?"
Morson slapped the pockets of his pants.
"For God sakes, thought I had it parked!"
Roman gave him the keys and turned to go, but he couldn't, not quite. He took a last look at Mr. Morson and saw that something was very wrong with him. T.J. Morson was sitting there with his mouth open, staring at the car keys. Not moving.
"Hey," Roman bent toward him, then waved his hand before the man's eyes, "you okay?"
"No," said Mr. Morson. He shut his mouth and then slowly, like a very old man, stood and shrugged on his jacket. He dropped the keys, picked them up. Sat back down and stared once more at the machine. Slowly, from his pants pocket, he drew a bit of change. Held it out questioningly to Roman, who rummaged in his own pocket and exchanged what Mr. Morson offered for a quarter. Morson held it a moment, then played it. Nothing.
"You okay?" Roman asked again.
But Morson was staring vacantly before him. His mouth was open and his hands were shaking.
"Not all right, not all right," he muttered.
"Hey," said Roman, "come on. Get up. Let's go sit in the cafe. I'll buy you a coffee."
"What I need is a drink."
"Yeah, well, maybe." Roman helped steady Mr. Morson. They walked down the aisle of light and sound, along a short hallway, and into a small interior restaurant where the waitress gave them a booth for two and poured their coffee.
"Cream. Lots of it. Thanks," Roman told her. She left the pot and a bowl of tiny plastic servings of flavored half-and-half.
"Thank you," said T.J. Morson, staring at the brown pottery cup. "And thank you for returning my car keys." His voice was heavy as a pour of concrete. The syllables seemed to harden as they fell from his mouth. "Well," he looked up, scanned the country-themed room, "this is it."
"What are you talking about?" asked Roman.
Morson put his face in his hands and then slowly pushed his hands up his face and over his hair. "That was it," he said again.
"Listen." Roman was beginning to feel alarmed. "It's your birthday. You should be heading home." He thought of all the excited people waiting in the living room of the Morson house, crouched behind the sofa and chairs and kitchen counters, the lights off.
"Weren't you supposed to be home a while ago?"
Mr. Morson looked at Roman, frowning now, momentarily distracted. "Who are you?"
"I'm a friend of Buzz and Willa," Roman told him. "Look, I'm going to let you in on something that's going to cheer you up. You've got to go home now. I'm not supposed to say a thing about it, but they're planning a surprise party in your honor. Zola's got the cake. Even as we speak, they are in your house, waiting for you. They have presents."
Telling this to Morson was surprisingly difficult. Roman felt the bleeding sensation of envy when he imagined stepping onto the warm, thick carpet. The blast of noise from friends. The bean soup. Beer. Cake.
Mr. Morson said nothing.
"You can't just leave them waiting there." Roman heard a note of accusing desperation in his voice.
Morson shook his head, now, as though his misery was a fall of water washing over him. His brilliant white hair lifted in the staticky air. Roman felt like reaching over and patting it down, but he kept his hand curled around his coffee cup.
"Fuck's sake, I can't go back there," said Morson wearily. "They don't know. Zola has no idea about this . . ." he waved his hand toward the casino through the glass doors of the restaurant. "I play when she's at work, when I'm supposed to be at work, except I don't have a job, see. That's over. She doesn't know I put a second mortgage on our house, a line of credit, then topped it. Cleaned out every one of our accounts." He stared fiercely, disconnectedly, at Roman. "There's nothing," he said. His mouth was suddenly and frighteningly sharklike, an impersonal black hungry v. A bubble of spit formed at either corner. "They'll take the house and then my car. They'll take her car. And Kayla . . . Oh god."
Morson dropped his face into the bowl of his hands. Roman thought he might either break down and sob or leap up and rake his fingers down the wallpaper. Which would it be? He was feeling oddly disconnected. Maybe this was the way a shrink felt, listening to the woes of a client from behind a clear shield of therapeutic immunity.
With a thick, jerky movement, T.J. Morson struck his hands together.
"I don't even smoke," he said as though appealing to Roman, "I don't drink. But this ..." again he waved at the lights and bells outside the door. "I think, I know, I had the vision or whatever, that because it was my birthday I could turn it all around if I had just, say, a couple hundred. And I knew where to get it. So today after Zola went to work and Kayla was at school, I sneaked back to the house and I searched Kayla's room. She has this little passbook savings account with me as her co-signer. But where does she keep the passbook? So I dug through the stuff in her drawers, her closets. Can you imagine this?"
Roman's mouth opened. Better than you know, he thought. But Morson went on quickly, "I found her secret things. They were under the bed, in this cigar box she had covered on top with a piece of paper. You wouldn't believe this knowing how sweet Kayla is, what a good girl. The box was labeled with a purple marker fuck with kayla and you die. Here she's a good little student, all As or Bs, never given anybody whatsoever any trouble in her life before. So this tough little message ... I mean . . ."
Morson stopped and drank some coffee.
"It got to you," said Roman.
"Yeah," said Morson. "Anyway, I took the passbook. Withdrew two hundred and eighteen dollars worth of baby-sitting money."
Roman nodded, poured another coffee for himself and stirred in three creamers. And yet, he thought. Here is a man for whom people will give a surprise party. Roman tapped the sugar packets, drank the rest of the coffee, put the money down on top of the check.
"I have to get out of here," he said to Morson, who stared at him for a moment, then widened his eyes and broke the look off with a cunning little grin.
T.J. Morson followed Roman out the door of the cafe. On the way past the banks of moving lights and bells and trilling knockers, he said, "C'mon. I hit, we'll split."
Roman kept walking. Morson grabbed the sleeve of his jacket. "Please," he said. Roman started at the sight of him. Morson's eyes were rolled back so the whites showed. His lips were drawn away from his gums in a guilty snarl. Roman felt in his pocket, flipped out a quarter. Morson opened the hand that held the car keys. Roman took the keys and gave the quarter to Morson, who played it. The two men watched the rolling tabs of symbols spin over and over, whirling, clicking into place in a disparate row.
"Okay, you satisfied?" said Roman.
Morson wiped his hands slowly on his hips and then followed Roman out the doors, across the gleaming, wet parking lot, over to the Cherokee. Roman still had the keys. He opened the doors and got into the driver's side. Passive, concentrating on something invisible just before him, Morson got into the passenger's seat and shut his eyes. But suddenly, as Roman pulled out of the parking space onto the highway, Morson mumbled "thanks anyway," and opened his door to jump out. Roman managed to hook his hand in the collar of Morson's slippery jacket, and as he brought the car to a halt on the shoulder, he yanked the man back toward him with such surprising force that Morson's face smashed into the side of the steering wheel. There was an instant and surprising amount of blood.
"Don't worry," said Morson, his nose behind his hands, "I get these things real bad." There was a girl's striped knit stocking cap in his door's side pocket. Morson grabbed it and put it to his face. Then he said, "look, I'll just go clean up." He jumped out the door with the cap on his face, and was gone.
Roman pulled ahead about thirty feet into a blind driveway and shut off the engine. He found the lever next to the seat that dropped it backwards a few inches. He rested. A peaceful energy flowed through him. He nearly slept. Fifteen minutes, then half an hour passed. Traffic flowed by, snarled behind him, flowed again. A few people crossed before him at the far edge of an overflow lot. They swiftly entered their cars and drove away. Roman dozed another ten minutes and then he suddenly snapped to. He started the car and drove off.
As he pulled back onto the highway a screeching ambulance barreled past. The casino was filled with Senior Citizens and Roman imagined a whole scenario--a big payout, an old man elated, then clutching at his heart. This fantasy gave him the idea, as he drove toward Morson's house, of something he could say to get Morson off the hook. It wasn't that he liked Morson, but his friends were so eager, so well-meaning. It wasn't right to disappoint them. Things were going to be so bad with Morson that there was no way to make them worse. Roman decided he would announce that Morson was dead. He'd use that same scenario--payout, heart attack--and then while the pandemonium of reaction occurred he'd simply disappear. When Morson finally did show up his being broke would not be quite as bad, at least, as being dead. Roman's lie would confuse the issue, muddy the waters, give Zola and the others a pause before they condemned. There seemed no harm in it as far as Roman could see, considering what Zola and Kayla were in for anyway. At least they would have the joy of having their worst fears reversed!
Roman arrived at the house and parked in the driveway--still empty in order to fool Morson into thinking that the house was deserted. Yet all the lights were on. The little house was blazing. Roman walked up the steps and then tentatively eased the door open and poked his head around the side. He remembered to set his features in a look of tragic concern. He nearly jumped back out. All of the people he'd met before were standing or sitting at attention in the living room. They returned his look with identical stares.
"We know already," said the terse old lady who'd been drinking strawberry wine coolers. "He had his I.D. right on him, phone number. Kyle took Zola to the emergency room. Zola just called two seconds ago."
"Come on in," said Buzz. "Take a load off. I'll get you a beer. In fact," he said, "let's eat. It's some kind of custom that we all should eat together at a time like this."
Roman sat down on one end of the couch, leaned back into a stiff pillow. He looked down at his knees, then accepted a bowl of bean soup when it appeared in his line of vision. The bowl was warm and pleasant in his hands.
"They told Zola that he'd crossed the casino's main intersection, running. What is that, two lanes? Not so far, really."
"Four lanes," said Roman.
"Oh," said someone, "then."
"Zola said he was not quite DOA," said Buss, "but next thing to it. There just wasn't a thing they could do."
Now the others had bowls of soup, and bread, and were busily arranging themselves, patting napkins onto their knees, balancing coffee cups, offering butter around the group.
"We shouldn't eat the cake."
"I agree," said Willa. "We should have his cake at the funeral dinner."
"Are you going to go?" She addressed Roman. He looked at her. "It can't be true!"
Willa apologized. "I've never been much for denial. I go straight to acceptance. That's just me."
"You don't need to think that far ahead," said Buzz. He touched Roman's arm. "In fact, don't think ahead at all." Buzz put down his bowl of soup and sank forward, elbows on his knees. He cupped his hands over his head and leaned over like someone about to be sick. He stayed that way, motionless. Willa put her hand on his back and patted him with slow, regular beats. She looked over at Roman.
"Go on, eat your soup," she whispered. "It's okay."
Roman placed a spoonful of the soup in his mouth. A moment passed before he realized that the taste was unusually good. Something gave depth to the taste. Roman looked at Buzz, still hunched over. His specialty, he remembered. Maybe Buzz simmered his beans with garlic, or wine, or some kind of herb. Maybe it was the sorrow, or the strangeness. Perhaps Buzz had added a few drops from a vial of Liquid Smoke. Then again a ham bone. Or the fact that these beans were all different types. Roman finished the bowl and put it down.
"You want another?" said Willa.
"It's good," Roman nodded.
She got up to refill the bowl and Roman took over patting Buzz on the back, slow and regular, two or three pats to each of his sighing breaths. He kept feeling the wrench when he'd pulled Morson toward him, in the car, the way Morson had twisted, striking the bridge of his nose. There was the weight of Morson off balance, in his arms, the smell of his hair tonic, aftershave, and the smoke of the casino and the coffee on his breath.
Now here he was eating Morson's bean soup with Morson's friends and no doubt in two or three days he would be tasting Morson's cake. Roman shut his eyes. His thoughts flickered.
"I'll be right back."
He set the beer down, got up, walked down the hall just like an old friend who knew the place. He opened the door to Kayla's room, walked in, shut the door behind him and knelt on the floor beside her bed. Reaching underneath, he groped for and found the box that he could see, once he turned on her little homework lamp, was indeed labeled fuck with kayla and you die. He handled it carefully. You shouldn't have fucked with Kayla. Psychic time bomb for the girl, though, wasn't it? Morson had replaced her little passbook. Roman flipped to the last page, then tore out a deposit slip. Same bank as his. Anyone could make a transfer, he supposed. He put the passbook back, lay the cigar box on the floor and snapped the sides flat. Then he slipped the box back underneath the bed. He walked back to the living room, passed behind an intense discussion of who should go now to the hospital, who was needed, what arrangements. In the kitchen, he paused at the sink for a drink of warmish, chemical-tasting suburb water. He set the keys to the Cherokee on the counter. Then he slipped out the back door.
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Hidden symbolisms in Blade Runner 2049 [spoilers]

The 2049 layers in huge amounts of symbolism and imagery, a lot of which I don't think has been fully picked up on. I've written a longer piece about some of what I think's in there, but I'll try to condense it here into just the stuff that's particularly relevant to interpreting some of the enigmatic undercurrents behind the plot.
Nabokov & Kafka
The allusion's to Nabokov's "Pale Fire" in the baseline test, and Kafka's character Josef K as the name Joe/K in "The Trial" have both been highlighted by lots of reviewers.
One thing that I've not seen mentioned is the relevance of the two works to each other - Nabokov is deeply influenced by Kafka in his work and deliberately mirrors his work in several ways.
That interlinking comes into the film in other ways. Nabokov interpret's Kafka's "The Metamorphosis" as having been into a Beetle, which is significant to him as having wings hidden under it's casing. A hidden & unknown transcendental ability of flight.
"Gregor the beetle never found out that he had wings under the hard covering of his back. (This is a very nice observation on my part to be treasured all your lives. Some Gregors, some Joes and Janes, do not know that they have wings.)"
The beetle motif is hidden in the film in a couple of places, most clearly in the scene where Ana and K meet, as she concentrates on an irredescant green beetle in the forest.
She creates one other memory during that scene, of the birthday cake, with a deep darkness as the candles are blown out. That has an opaque foreshadowing of K's death through it's resonance with The Trial, which starts on Josef K's 30th birthday, and ends when he is killed on his 31st birthday. (2049 also being set 30 years after the original)
The date on the horse comes in here too; 06–10–21. Read that American style and we have 10th June, Gemini, sign of the twins. Conversely read it mirrored into European style, and we have 6th October. Break the fourth wall and that's the release date of the film, representing K's birthday.
The DNA in the birth records indicated identical twins, which means that a girl and boy shouldn't normally be possible. However in some miraculously rare circumstances, it can occur. For this to happen one of two male twins drops a Y chromosome during development, and becomes developmentally female.
The girl child in these (exceedingly rare) circumstances would present Turner Syndrome, which include a pre-disposition to auto-immune disorders, which Stelline describes.
Greek & Roman pantheons
The title "Pale Fire" comes from a line of Shakespeare...
"The moon's an arrant thief, And her pale fire she snatches from the sun."
Ana Stelline's name echos here, as Selene, the Greek Goddess of the moon. (Mirrored in her brother Helios, God of the Sun.)
Interstingly, bringing back the theme of twins, the historical figures Cleopatra and Mark Anthony had twin children that they named Selene and Helios.
In classical times Selene and Helios later find themselves becoming associated with the Roman Gods, the twins of Diana and Apollo. (Again, associated with the Moon and Sun respectively.)
That reflection and re-reflection is found again in the character's name: Ana, Stelline / Diana, Selene.
The scriptwriters have then further transformed the names in such a way that each also has (at least) a double meaning. Ana (Hebrew for grace) and Stella, for star.
A few of the characters have names with significant Hebrew translations. Rachel is "Ewe" a female sheep, which we find in "Do Androids dream of electric sheep" and in Gaff's origami sheep.
Rachel is also found in the Hebrew bible. She has two children and dies in childbirth. She was buried by a sacred olive tree at the side of the road. (That sounds familiar.)
Rachel's tomb is now a holy site. Older illustations of the tomb seem remarkably similar to the scene of the tree standing outside Sapper Morton's house.
Rachel had two children Benjamin and Joeseph. Benjamin later had a daughter Esther. (A Persian name, meaning Star. Stella. Stelline.)
Deckard's opening lines from treasure island are spoken by a character Ben. The allusion is a little imperfect, but we have each of Rachel, Ben, Joe and Esther (Stelline) in the family.
Sylvia Plath
Just as K has a hidden association with Kafka's works, I think that Stelline has a hidden association with Sylvia Plath's.
In the casino a holographic Sinatra is singing inside a bell jar jukebox. The image evokes Stelline in her own glass prison, as well as the emotional tone of Plath's novel "The Bell Jar". The lead character of the novel is named Esther. (There's that name again.)
There are other links too, Stelline's "I was locked in a steel chamber at 8" resonates with Plath's inner life, as her father died at 8, and matches the way she talks about those years as "sealed themselves off like a ship in a bottle".
The bee imagery found in the film is also linked in, being deeply symbolic to Plath, being linked to her personal life and her father, and appearing throughout her poetry.
Transcendence & Rebirth
The name Esther (as Stelline) is found again in Pale Fire. Nabokov used the phrase "A dark Vanessa" as the image of a butterfly, a figure that represents transcendal rebirth, while also layering in literary allusions to Jonathan Swift (Gulliver's Travels) who created the name "Vanessa" as a pet name for his love Esther Vanhomrigh. The name was created by taking "Van" from Vanhomrigh's last name and adding "Essa", a pet form of Esther.
(We possibly see allusion to Jonathan Swift's "Gulliver's Travels" in 2049 too, the gigantic towering versions of Joi, and Luv's line, "You tiny thing".)
The subject of the Pale Fire poem being the fictional author's dead daughter with the butterfly as Esther, and the holographic resonance of Esther in the Bell Jar, could both point towards an interpretation that, as the birth records indicated, Ana and Joe were twins, and Ana really did die, but was saved by being given a holographic afterlife, and hidden in plain sight.
We never see the character touch the glass in response to either K or Deckard, and the very particular choice of phrases she uses are interesting.
The image of the snowflakes falling through her hand in the final scenes can be viewed either as a hand moving through holographic snowflakes, or else as snowflakes falling through a holographic hand, depending on what expected perspective you're looking at it from.
In her words "It was a new life for me".
The interpretation has resonances with Philip K Dick's personal life too.
Philip Kindred Dick and Jane Charlotte Dick were born as premature twins. Jane lived to only six weeks old.
Philip purchased the plot next to hers before his death in 1982, and they now share a twin gravestone.
(I'd also wonder if Stelline's final words "It's beautiful isn't it?" could be read as being a scene of her speaking not neccessarily to Deckard, but to K, in his moment of death.)
As I mention, I've written a longer piece about all this, including various other bits of related mythology and hidden symbolisms that I think are also linked in.
Edit: Thanks so much for all the discussion. Helped change my view slightly on one bit which is to be a little less literal in how to interpret all the allusions to twins that are hidden away. I’d read that more as Ana twinned to K through his memories and dreams.
In any case what I think is fascinating is how all this hidden subtext gives you a kind of window onto the souls of the characters, and the hidden layering upon layering binds a beautiful mystery and depth into the film.
Now, off to sleep, perchance to dream.
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Good bakeries for birthday?

Hey guys
Looking to have cupcakes to feed 25-30 people and maybe a smaller cake for 6-8 people for my dads birthday. The theme is casino for his 60th. This can be personal bakeries you’re aware of or bigger businesses.
I can pickup but should be within 30-45m drive from downtown.
Edit : do any places do custom cake designs?
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Hey /Vancouver,
Here are some events going on for Canada Day. Some may’ve been found in my other threads like “Bands in Town” and “Food Event Threads”, but here it’s all mashed into one and hopefully easily digestible thread. Normally I separate these type of threads by day, but because there is only one Canada Day I’ve separated it by city. Please note if I left out any city (Aldergrove, Abbotsford, Langley, Maple Ridge, and Pitt Meadows) it’s because I’ve deemed you too far away and urge you to come back to civilization.
I know there are events happening all around July 1st and spilling into the 2nd/3rd but… this is only for July 1st.
Canada Day Celebration @ Edmonds Community Centre – FREE
Canada Day Celebrations at the Burnaby Village Museum @ Burnaby Village Museum - FREE
Concert & Fireworks @ Swangard Stadium – FREE
Celebrating Canada’s 150th Birthday @ Town Centre Park – FREE
Canada Day Skate @ Poirier Sport & Leisure Complex - $2 including rentals
Delta Region
Picnic @ Diefenbaker Park – By Donation
Celebration @ Kirkland House – FREE
Canada Celebration @ Chambers Park – FREE
New Westminister
Canada Day Celebrations @ Queens Park – FREE
Canada Day Celebrations @ River Market – Free
North Vancouver
Canada Day Parade @ Grand Boulevard and 13th Street – Free
Celebrating Canada 150 @ Waterfront Park – Free
Canada Day @ Grouse Mountain - $44.95 – Assuming you need to buy a pass
Port Coquitlam
Pancake Breakfast @ Lion’s Park - Free
Canada 150 Celebration @ Castle Park - Free
Port Moody
City of Port Moody presents Canada Day @ Rocky Point Park – Free
41st Annual Golden Spike Days @ Rocky Point Park – By Donation
Canada Day in Steveston @ Steveston Village – Free
Celebrate Canada 150 @ Richmond Nightmarket - $3.75
Largest Western Canada Day Celebration @ Bill Reid Millennium Amphitheatre – Free
Senior’s Strawberry Tea @ Cloverdale Recreation Centre – Free
Dominion Days Festival @ Historic Steward Farm – Free
Surrey’s Heritage Rail @ Cloverdale Station - $5, $10, and $15
Canada Day Fireworks at Coal Harbour - Free
Canada Day @ Canada Place – Free
Canada Day Cookout @ Olympic Village - $10 - $59
Disco Party @ IE Creative - Granville Island – FREE
Canada Day Block Party @ Waldorf - $20
*Block Party at the Waldof
Drumming Circle @ Creekside Park – Free
Canada Day @ Sunset Community Centre – Free
Canada Day Britannia Community Services @ Grandview Park – Free
Canada Day Kensington Community Centre @ Renfew Park – Free
Canada Day Run @ Pacific Spirit Park - $40
OWN CANADA DAY @ Caprice - $Free if RSVP
Canada Day @ Royal Canadian Mint – Free
Canada Day @ Robson Street – Free
The Nite Show – Canada Day @ Venue – Free if you’re on the list
Canada Day Boat Party + Fireworks + Dinner + Entertainment @ Abitibi - $70
Canada Day Live Swing and Jazz @ Kino Café – Free
The Ultimate Canada Day and Night Party @ Plaza of Nations - $120 - $180
Poutine Party @ The Cobalt - Free
Canada Day Boat Party @ LCU Nightlife/Plaza of Nations - $35
Minecraft Canada Day @ River District Centre – FREE
Canada Day Pool Party @ Drai’s Beach Club - $25
West Vancouver
Picnic @ John Lawson Park – Free
Celebrate Canada Day @ Horseshoe Bay - Free
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Superbowl 53: The Goat vs the Ram and the Future of America #RiseUp

Superbowl 53: The Goat vs the Ram and the Future of America #RiseUp
I had this very long post that was going to be part 2 about Atlantis and this was going to be part 3 since this deserves its own post but after it was almost finished, my power went out briefly and I lost the entire thing. So I've been recovering from that loss to say the least as I had made some amazing connections in the process of writing it as is what usually happens to me and I hope I can remember them all so I can rewrite it after this. Since the Superbowl is today, this should have already been out so I am doing this first.

Superbowl LIII (53) is today and that means millions of eyeballs and consciousnesses will all be focused on a single event. Seems like a good time to harvest that energy into something doesn't it? If you've ever been to a football game, especially one with a rabid fanbase, you can almost feel the energy of the stadium with the ups and downs of the game. Players will speak about this as well, getting fueled by the crowd. If this is the case, then could something else be fueled by all that energy as well? Maybe something not so obvious and on the surface as the game going on right in front of everyone?


Superbowl 53: The New England Patriots vs The Los Angles Rams. Taking place on February 3rd, 2019 at Mercedez Benz Stadium in Atlanta, Georgia. The more I discover the less I believe in coincidences. So is it any coincidence that this entire Superbowl relates to so many things I have talked about on here? Atlanta being an obvious allusion to Atlantis. A city rife with phoenix symbolism, rising from the ashes. The Falcons akin to a phoenix and the Egyptian god Horus. They even have a female football team called Phoenix. What does the phoenix at its core represent? Death and rebirth. Transformation. Moving from one area to the next with the idea of shedding the old and bringing in the new. There is also a number strongly correlated with this idea as well. The number 8. The ourobrous, infinity, the snake eating itself, DNA, beginning and end, alpha and omega. It just so happens that this Superbowl is full of 8's.

Superbowl 53
5 + 3 = 8

February 3rd, 2019
02/03/2019 = 2 + 3 + 2 + 1 + 9 = 17 (Q is the 17th letter of the alphabet aka Qanon) = 1 + 7 = 8

These teams first Superbowl against each other was in the 2002, 17 years ago.

The stadium the game is being played in, Mercedes Benz Stadium, has a dome with 8 points in the form of a lotus flower, opening up like some kind of portal to another world.


There's also another 8 that seems to make this all the more significant. A chapter from the Old Testament. Daniel 8. The Goat vs The Ram.


Daniel’s Vision of a Ram and a Goat

Since it's obvious which team represents the Ram in this story, how would the Patriots represent the goat? Tom Brady. Often referred to as the greatest of all time or the GOAT. This isn't just an off the cuff nickname either, it's thrown around quite often to the point of there being several depictions as him as a goat and the Patriots logo itself.

We want 666

Tom Brady and the Patriots themselves are known for being cheaters (I have no opinion, I don't really watch football) yet they continue to win. So how does this relate to anything meaningful going on the real world? Who might the goat and the ram represent? Tom Brady is a known Trump supporter. Trump and the Patriots might as well be permanently linked. People even love to hate the Patriots, especially now that Trump is linked to them. Trump even has huge problems with California making this even more interwoven with him personally. And just like in the story, one is from the west and the other is from the east. Although I believe they are switched here. Trump is also a cheater who continues to win all the time.

"The goat became very great"
"It prospered in everything it did and truth was thrown to the ground"

Make America Great Again? Greatest of all Time?

This chapter is obviously a different expanded on version of the previous chapter about the 4 kingdoms, the last one being made of iron with feet mixed with clay. The "little horn" spoken about in both of these is Trump. He is also strongly correlated to the number 8 which I have shown many times. Trump = 88 in simple gematria. The little horn (the little baron Trump anyone?) refers to the star Regulus, Trumps star. Regulus means "little king" in Latin. It is one of 4 "Royal" stars and it is the ruler. These 4 stars represent the 4 seasons with Regulus representing spring. Regulus is at the base of what is considered the sickle of the constellation Leo. Which is also known as the heart of the lion.


Spring is the time of renewal. The death of winter and the birth of new life comes with Spring. Easter, which celebrates the death and resurrection of Christ, takes place in Spring. It's also in the Zodiac sign of Aries, the Ram, the god of war. Known as Mars in Rome. In the theme of Atlantis Rising, is this a symbolic version of Hercules taking on the 3 headed Ram? Hercules was associated with a few different satyrs, half man goat creatures. The Disney movie Hercules features this prominently. There's even a pretty bizarre connection to Hercules directly related to this Superbowl.


The site also contains fragments of a colossal partly stone statue, identified as Hercules, and estimated to have been over 12 m (39 ft) tall. It was probably destroyed in an earthquake. All that remains are three fingers and an elbow.

All that remains are three fingers and an elbow.

Superbowl eL(bow) III

LIII could also be a reference to the name for god El and the Christ IH monogram III, H-K, wall, 8, and even humanity itself. The Lombardi trophy in the middle acting like the flaming trident fusing the 2 together. Merging of the 2 worlds. Now which world are we merging with exactly? The one known as heaven or the one known as hell? L is also the 12th letter of the alphabet making another translation of LIII = 33. Fitting that there is an arch or gate right next to the remains of the statue. Tom Brady's jersey number is also 12.


Rise up. The Atlanta Falcons slogan for the past couple of years. Very appropriate for a city full of Phoenix imagery and named after Atlantis. What exactly is rising? And if that stadium is any indication, are we above the dome and its opening below us or are we inside the dome and its opening above us? Revelation speaks about a bottomless pit opening up and an army of locusts coming out with a king named Abaddon/Apollyon aka The Destroyer. In Hindu mythology, this is just 1 out of 3 aspects for certain gods. The creator, maintainer and destroyer. One of these gods being Shiva. The god prominently featured in statue form at CERN. Is CERN summoning up Abaddon who many believe to also be the true Antichrist known by many names throughout history. Such as Osiris, Nimrod, Apollo, and a plethra of other known gods?
There are a few different ancient "day of the dead" type festivals in the coming months. Samhain is an ancient Gaelic festival of the dead that was celebrated the same as Halloween. This is thought to be the festival that a lot these Halloween type holidays are actually based on. The date and meaning for which has been changed and shifted around a lot but one of these dates has caught my eye as its right in the middle of 2 dates I think are going to be very important this year. April 19th, 20th and the 21st. Passover, All Saints Day for the Irish and Easter.

Passover is the day in which the Jewish people celebrate their god Yahweh rescuing them from Egypt by killing the first born sons. In order to not be killed themselves, they were told to wipe lamb's blood on their doors so that this angel of death would "passover" them. Well Aries, the Ram, just so happens to be the first sign in the zodiac. Since I have identified Yahweh with the ram (I think he's many things and even this goat vs ram is something akin to pro wrestling and a case where you hope they both end up killing each other as neither are a good choice) it would make sense that the "lords sacrifice" would be handed over to the goat after he kills the ram. Are we also about to have another Exodus type event here in America as well?

I had also predicted Prince Harry and Meghan's baby to be born during this weekend back in October. Twins where one would die and the other would be a red headed female. If this does indeed happen (with the twins), we may never even know as I doubt they would tell us but something else about this that could relate to the book of Revelations.

Revelation 12 New International Version (NIV)

The Woman and the Dragon
12 A great sign appeared in heaven: a woman clothed with the sun, with the moon under her feet and a crown of twelve stars on her head.2 She was pregnant and cried out in pain as she was about to give birth.3 Then another sign appeared in heaven: an enormous red dragon with seven heads and ten horns and seven crowns on its heads. 4 Its tail swept a third of the stars out of the sky and flung them to the earth. The dragon stood in front of the woman who was about to give birth, so that it might devour her child the moment he was born. 5 She gave birth to a son, a male child, who “will rule all the nations with an iron scepter.” And her child was snatched up to God and to his throne. 6 The woman fled into the wilderness to a place prepared for her by God, where she might be taken care of for 1,260 days.

Is Meghan the woman in this story? Are one of the twins this male child? The Greek meaning for "caught/snatched up" means "to seize, snatch, obtain by robbery. From a derivative of haireomai; to seize. So its saying that God stole this woman's baby. Afterwards, the dragon gets cast down to earth and tries to drown the woman in a river but she is saved and goes into the wilderness. Oddly enough, we never hear of this woman again and never find out who she is. This story actually makes no sense under any lens. First Satan, the dragon, was said to be cast out at the beginning of creation. Second, the prevailing idea is that the woman is Mary and the Baby is Jesus but this makes no sense either. Jesus always existed (I'm just going by what the Bible says for sake of argument) and if this was him being born on Earth, then it completely contradicts the Gospels. This story is completely out of line with the entire Bible. Unless this is the recycling of the Messiah process. Meaning every so many years, a new messianic figure is born to "save" the people and become that generations hero. You can see this throughout many myths. This would also contradict the entire Bible but its the only thing that makes sense to me.

This story of 2 factions of non-human being fighting over the earth using their sons goes all the back to ancient Hittite stories where one is a giant rock god who even comes out of the sea like one of the beasts in Revelations. A male child being snatched up to heaven would also be in line with Passover and killing of the first born son. 4/19 is the day the American Revolution began in 1775 with an American victory in Concord during the battles of Lexington and Concord. With the Patriots being from Boston, home of Plymouth Rock, this entire Superbowl is overflowing with the death/rebirth motif.

April 20th will be the 130th birthday of Hitler and the 20th anniversary of the infamous school shooting known simply as Columbine. A columbine is a dove or a pigeon. Like the spirit of God that descended on Jesus when he was baptized in the Bible. This is also the Irish All Saints Day which is just a Christianized version of the Ancient Celtic festival Samhain moved to this date to avoid any associations with it. Samhain has all sorts of crazy stories attached to it, many relevant to what we may actually see in the future as well as to the story of Hercules and Atlantis. This was the time of the year thought to be where spirits from other worlds would come into ours to interact with us us in various ways. Some good and some bad. There's stories of child sacrifices, ritualized killings of kings, people having visions of the future, and the idea that someone would be killed to "mark the occasion by persons unknown." There's even a story about a king meeting his death after breaking certain taboos and he is forewarned of his incoming fate by 3 undead horsemen who were sent by the god of the dead. Who just so happens to be named Donn. There just so happens to be a depiction of 3 "horsemen" etched into the side of whats called Stone Mountain near Atlanta. Depictions of Stonewall Jackson, Robert E Lee and Jefferson Davis.

In relation to Hercules, Samhain marks the beginning of a story called "Cattle Raid of Cooley".There's also another festival whos actual date would only be a week or so later called Beltane.

According to 18th century writers, in parts of Scotland there was another ritual involving the oatmeal cake. The cake would be cut and one of the slices marked with charcoal. The slices would then be put in a bonnet and everyone would take one out while blindfolded. According to one writer, whoever got the marked piece would have to leap through the fire three times. According to another, those present would pretend to throw him into the fire and, for some time afterwards, they would speak of him as if he were dead. This "may embody a memory of actual human sacrifice", or it may have always been symbolic. A similar ritual (i.e. of pretending to burn someone in the fire) was practised at spring and summer bonfire festivals in other parts of Europe
Since 1988, a Beltane Fire Festival has been held every year during the night of 30 April on Calton Hill in Edinburgh, Scotland. While inspired by traditional Beltane, this festival is a modern arts and cultural event which incorporates myth and drama from a variety of world cultures and diverse literary sources.

Spring seems to be full of ancient festivals involving sacrifice, including men and children.

April 21st will be Easter. The celebration of Jesus's resurrection from dead. The "rebirth" part of the cycle in the meaning behind the number 8. It'll have been 3 years since this tombstone was put in Central Park in New York.

I have predicted that Trump would be assassinated around this date. (read this link for an in depth explanation about this) Now the question is, will this assassination be successful or will he survive this attempt on his life and use it to enact certain measures that allow him to take more power? What if he receives "a deadly head wound but did live" like the Beast from the Sea in the book of Revelation is said to have and he seems to have magically been "resurrected" like Jesus? You see that rock formation directly behind the tomb? Ever since I saw this picture, that formation has caught my attention. I don't know if Trump will be the one who emerges but if the movie "The Gate" is any indication, killing Trump would possibly open up these so called portals or gates to other worlds and allow certain beings to come fully through. And where could this possibly happen?

Well the first and obvious choice is Antarctica. The Hollow Earth theory, which is very prevalent in these Masonic predictive movies and books, says that at the poles, are giant tunnels leading to the inside of the earth with all sorts of beings inside. Antarctica is currently thawing out right now and they just discovered a giant void deep down underneath the ice. Keeping with the idea that a lot of the Bible is inverted, what if hell isn't really fire? How exactly do you "bound" beings with chains into a land of fire? If these are spirits, how would fire even hurt them and if they're biological, the fire would eventually kill them. What state could you bound a biological entity in where they wouldn't die but they couldn't escape either. You know the common saying "When hell freezes over"? Maybe thats the joke, hell already is frozen over because thats what hell is, being frozen in ice, trapped in your body neither alive or dead. Apparently freezing yourself for a future date is becoming more and more a realistic option. There's a TV show from the 60s where this idea becomes very relevant.

The Avengers - S06E16 - Invasion of the Earthmen (1969 TV Show)

Following up a clue found on a dead agent Steed and Miss King pose as a married couple, enabling them to infiltrate the Alpha Academy, where they claim they wish to enroll their 'son'. The academy is run by Brigadier Brett and is supposedly for youngsters who possess super-intelligence but it is in reality a training ground for a force who seek not global but extra-terrestrial domination.

Pence: "As President Trump has said in his words, it is not enough to have merely an American presence in space, we must have American DOMINANCE in space".

The character in the show simply goes by "Trump". Although he seems to be the main guy under the leader, he doesn't do or say much. Here is an interesting conversation in the episode with the leader. Which is probably the only interesting part of this entire episode.

Miss King: "Just how do you plan on reaching the stars?"
Brigadier Brett: "Both East and West are competing like school boys to create methods of space transportation. When the means are available, I shall lead my armies into these new worlds and colonize them."
Miss King: "Your army?"
"My army of astronauts, astronaut soldiers to be precise."
"To wage war on other astronauts?"
"To wipe them out.I will invade the new territories out there, while this world makes formal protests and looks at the rule books."
"It's happened before."
"Exactly, Miss King."
"It may be 50 years before space travel is made that easy. Your army will be old by then."
"Cryobiology Miss King. We have perfected the deep freezing of human tissues.

AIR DATE: 01-15-69 + 50 years = 1-15-2019
Interesting how Antarctica is currently unthawing and all the speculation of what we're going to find in there.
There is a giant snake that tries to eat people in the show and their symbol is a lighting bolt in a yellow circle. Sort of like the Nazi SS but with just one S. Their own people also "hunt" each other.

I have located somewhere else that could be of significance as to where a "gate" could open up. Las Vegas. Which is strongly correlated with the Giza pyramids and even Atlantis. It has its own pyramid, a very large one complete with a Sphinx and an obelisk. The one Trump's golden tower is aligned with.

The infamous Vegas shooting happened right across the street from the Luxor Hotel exactly 70 weeks ago. 490 days. The shooter was on the 32nd floor and the event he shot up was called the Route 91 Harvest. The Superbowl is 2/3/19

I discovered this by complete chance on several different levels but its too specific to not mean something.


These are both mirrored images. One of a random picture of Trumps tower in Vegas, the other a part of a map of Vegas that I mirrored one day just messing around. Thought it looked like one of the Koopas from Super Mario World and didn't think anything of it again until I opened up the Trump tower picture by accident and realized that not only do they look almost they exact same, it looks like the slanted H shape could represent 2 pillars. Like the pillars of Hercules.

I think came across this picture again, by complete accident and noticed they both had a circle at the top of their heads and then I knew there had to be something to this so I went searching for the area of the map to see what I could find.


And here we have GATEway Canyon. Right next to Cannibal Crag, Guardian Angel and Hot Tub Club which just makes me think of Hot Tub Time Machine. Gateway Canyon is apart of Turtlehead mountain. Turtles have a very significant symbolic meaning to all of this. Hermes killed a turtle and made a Lyre out of its shell.

In the far east, the turtles shell was a symbol of heaven and the square underside was a symbol of Earth. This meant that the turtle was an animal whose magic united heaven and Earth.
In the west, early Christians viewed turtles as a symbol of evil forces during war.
African - The turtle originated ju ju and appears in fertility rites. It represents the feminine to the serpent's masculine power.
Greco - As the feminine power of the waters, the turtle was an emblem of Aphrodite/Venus in Greco-Roman myth.
Native American - The totem symbolizes the relation between the tribe and it's ancestors. Human and animal figures are sculpted on a trunk and offerings are made to these sacred totems.
The Ojibwa, Saulteaux, Cree, and Iroquois people view the turtle as a symbol of Mother Earth and referred to the continent of North America as Turtle Island. They viewed the hard outer shell, which protects a living being, as an analogy to their mother, the Earth, also a living entity.
For the Aztecs, turtles were a symbol of cowardice and boastfulness. Hard outwardly but soft inwardly.
The turtle is a creature of two elements, Earth and water. The people of the Turtle Clan share an affinity with both. They enjoy helping things grow, both plants and people, yet require freedom to do their own things, as the turtle has its freedom in the water.
Turtles will often leave a pool or pond before a draught arrives. This is a warning of a change in climate.

Well, these are polar opposites in some cases but the turtle being some sort of messenger or bridge between us and the other dimensions seems to be strongly indicated here. With all the talks of droughts and climate change, the last one seems likely.

Then you have this plaque at the Hoover Dam which for some reason, looks exactly like the left mirrored side of Vatican Jesus coming out of the D-Wave logo. Construction started on the Hoover Dam in 1931. 88 years ago.

"They died to make the desert bloom"

The much talked about Oumuamua is from the Vega star system. If anybody thinks thats just another space rock, they're kidding themselves.

Calculating the exact path of 'Oumuamua took about a week. The math showed it was an object from beyond — way, way beyond. Its orbit was "unbound" or loop-less, and it was making a checkmark-shaped trip through the solar system. It had entered from above the plane of the solar system, dipped close to and below the sun, and was exiting out the top.

It's times like this when the reason I post what seem like completely irrelevant things becomes more clear. I noticed a theme of the goddess Nike so I posted a video about the history of the Nike swoosh. Since then, I found one randomly on top of a building in NY along the line where the HK splits Columbus circle (and no, its not a Nike store) and theres one in in the background of the mechanical display of the fall of Atlantis in a casino in Vegas. Then you can see how the logo for Aquaman relates to both as I had already thought that it looked like a ship passing over you as if you were underwater and it was on the surface of the water. Thats a statue of Nike in Paris called "Winged Victory of Samothrace". The yellow object next to it is apparently Nibryu. The person who came up with this design (no idea who or what exactly his logic was) claims that Nibryu is not a star or a planet but a spaceship and the source of what causes these Earth ending cataclysms. I'm just now making this connection and I don't think thats a coincidence either. The goddess of VICTORY riding a ship to battle in the same exact shape as the cataclysm causing ship of Nibryu? Who's victory is she symbolizing anyways exactly? And why is this associated with Atlantis? This goes back to the Economist 2019 cover. The Pot leaf over America that is really a Palm tree meaning Triumph or Victory.

There's actually a Star Trek episode about this very thing. This planet fears its the end of the world because this deity they made a deal with comes back and theres all sorts of earthquakes but Picard figures out theres a ship hidden thats causing the whole thing. That show is obviously run by people who know some secret knowledge. Undoubtedly this entire period we are in is being orchestrated by some outside force. There's an interesting AI entity in the Star Trek universe I read about on a Wiki once. Sounded a lot like our idea of god.

To tie this all back to the Superbowl....

A band called Maroon 5 will be playing the halftime game and apparently, they will be playing a song in the vein of Spongebob Sqaure Pants of all things. No I'm not kidding. This just got announced yesterday. Can anybody guess why (the real reason, not the one they'll tell us) or what song? The song is called...... Sweet VICTORY!

Maroon 5's Super Bowl 'SpongeBob' Tribute Looks Like It's Actually Happening

Spongebob Squarepants -Sweet Victory [Youtube[

And check out the hats they're wearing and compare it to the picture way below here, you'll know it when you see it.

So you know the song, now what is the real why? For Spongebob specifically? The one that the people doing this probably are't even aware of as I am not suggesting this is all planned out by human beings as some sinister plot. This is just oblivious script following 101. You just need to ask yourself one simple question. Who lives in a pineapple under the sea? SPONGEBOB SQUARE PANTS!. Pine apple. Under the sea. Pine as in pineal gland aka 3rd eye. Apple as in the common fruit associated with the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. The pineapple itself is used visually because it looks just like a palm tree and has the Fibonacci sequence visibly on it. There's also a palm tree literally called the pineapple palm tree. And what do Palm trees signify? Triumph/Victory. And where is this pineapple? Under the sea....

The lead singers name is Adam Levine. His middle name is NOAH. He was a part of a show called "The Voice" which just perfectly brings something else around that I have been talking about for months. This bag full of things I received completely randomly several months ago. There was a card in it referencing this show with a silhouette of Christina Aguilera and it said "The Return of the Voice April 12 2005"

Superman's "real" name is Kal-El, it means voice of God. Kind of like it says Jesus is the word of God. Superman is also an alien from outer space. The 2 symbols for Jesus, the Lion and the Dove? Those have always been the symbols for the Sumerian goddess Inanna. The dove itself has ALWAYS been associated with female goddesses. 777 is a number that has been popping up so often for me lately its a bit over the top. Those 3 days in sequence seem to be immensely important. That doesn't necessarily mean earth shattering events will happen on exactly those days but we are on the edge of whatever major event I keep talking about that never seems to come but 4/20 weekend is a time I have been talking about for months as well and the last major date that I have really seen signs pointing towards.

If that wasn't enough, I said in the Economist 2019 post that palm trees were Baal symbolism because Baals temple is in Palmyra, meaning palm tree and it just seems to be the common usage. That sinister under the veil of harmlessness usage where no one notices. Like how they took that Arch of "Triumph" from Baal's temple on a world tour the past couple years. Well there just so happens to be something called Ball's Pyramid right off the coast of New Zealand. It's literally the shape of a Xenomorph head from Alien and I somehow downloaded a picture of Shiva right in front of it without realizing it for who knows how long.


This place was discovered and named after a man named Henry (theres that name again) Lidgbird Ball on Feburary 17th, 1788. 2/17/1788. 11-8 Q Trump. 2 = 11, 17 = 8, 17 = Q, the 17th letter of the alphabet aka Qanon. 88 = Trump in gematria. 11-8 being the day of the 2016 election. K-H or H-K. 11 X 8 = 88. You can't make this shit up. On top of that, if this place was named after this guy, how could it possibly be associated with Palmyra or Baal? Well here are a couple of pretty loose associations. It was first climbed in 1964 and the paper who reported on it used a certain word to describe it.


Triumph. Column 8 and the paper is in its 134th year of publication. 1+3+4=8. Ball's pyramid is apart of the 8th continent Zealandia. Donnie Darko, as I have laid out in other threads, is strongly associated with the times we're in. The numbers Frank give him to the "end of the world" add up to 88. Here he is wearing a shirt that says Tr(i)ump(h). This place is also home to a rare stick insect commonly called the "tree lobster". Lobsters are a common symbol used by the Satanist occult I believe for the symbolism of the claw which represents a multitude of things. Ball's pyramid is also the tallest volcano stack in the world.

How does any of this translate to any kind of "event"?

The LA Rams used to be the St Louis Rams not even 3 or 4 years ago. They went from the place of the Gateway to the West, to the City of Angels. During all those fires in Cali last year, the set for Westworld burned down along with a place called Paradise. There's a place called Paradise right next to Vegas as well. Something you would have already known had I not lost my post but I need to reveal it now or else this part won't make as much sense. The 2 pillars of Hercules that lead to Atlantis. What/Where are they? The statue of Colossus was mistakenly thought to have one leg on either side of the harbor it was in, like a gateway, his legs being the 2 pillars so to speak. Italy is right next to the Straight of Gibraltar and shaped like a leg, or a boot, which is what most people refer to it as. What other country might be shaped like it to match? New Zealand, where they just so happens to be what is now called the sunken 8th Continent of Zealandia.


I will delve more into this entire thing when I rewrite what was suppose to be Part 2 but the reason this is relevant is because of the "boot".

Poseidon was the ruler of Atlantis. He was the god of the sea, horses and earthquakes. Keeping with this whole "boot" theme, there just so happens to be a very prominent fault line along a "boot" in America. The New Madrid fault line right next to the boot hill in Missouri. This fault line runs all the way up to St Louis, former home of the Rams. Who moved to LA, onto another very prominent fault line, called the San Andreas. The Straight of Gibraltar, thought to be the pillars of Hercules, the mountains he "split in half". Well on one half you have Morocco in Africa. The other half you have Spain in Europe. The capital of Spain is MADRID.


A few closing notes about this. The QB for the Rams, his name is Jared Goff.

Jared is a given name of Biblical derivation, common mostly in North American English-speaking countries.
In the Book of Genesis, the biblical patriarch Jared was the sixth link in the ten pre-flood generations between Adam and Noah; he was the son of Mahalaleel and the father of Enoch, and lived 962 years (per Genesis 5:18). The biblical text in Jubilees implicitly etymologizes the name as derived from the root YRD "descend", because in his days "the angels of the Lord descended to earth". Alternative suggestions for the name's etymology include words for "rose" and for "servant".

Goff is a surname with several distinct origins, mainly Germanic, Celtic, Jewish, and French. It is the 946th most common family name in the United States. When the surname originates from England it is derived from an occupational name from German, Cornish and Breton. The German Goff means a godly person, a strong warrior, or a priest. The Breton goff means "smith" (cognate with Gaelic gobha). The English-originating surname is common in East Anglia, where it is of Breton origin. The Welsh name is a variant of the surname Gough, and is derived from a nickname for someone with red hair**.** The native Irish name is derived from a patronymic form of the Gaelic personal name Eochaidh/Eachaidh, which means "horseman"

A red haired godly smith who descended from heaven. Sounds exactly like the Hykos.

February 3rd is the 33rd day of the year. Atlanta is on the 33rd parallel and as I pointed out earlier, LIII could be 33. 4/21 will be 111 days from December 31st. 9/11 is also 111 days from 12/31. I noticed an odd numerical association with 9/11 and this upcoming 4/20 weekend.

Four passenger airliners operated by two major U.S. passenger air carriers (United Airlines and American Airlines)—all of which departed from airports in the northeastern United States bound for California—were hijacked by 19 al-Qaeda terrorists. Two of the planes, American Airlines Flight 11 and United Airlines Flight 175, were crashed into the North and South towers, respectively, of the World Trade Center complex in Lower Manhattan. Within an hour and 42 minutes, both 110-story towers collapsed. Debris and the resulting fires caused a partial or complete collapse of all other buildings in the World Trade Center complex, including the 47-story 7 World Trade Center tower, as well as significant damage to ten other large surrounding structures. A third plane, American Airlines Flight 77, was crashed into the Pentagon (the headquarters of the U.S. Department of Defense) in Arlington County, Virginia, which led to a partial collapse of the building's west side. The fourth plane, United Airlines Flight 93, was initially flown toward Washington, D.C., but crashed into a field in Stonycreek Township near Shanksville, Pennsylvania, after its passengers thwarted the hijackers. 9/11 is the single deadliest terrorist attack in human history and the single deadliest incident for firefighters and law enforcement officers in the history of the United States, with 343 and 72 killed, respectively.
Two of the planes, American Airlines Flight 11 and United Airlines Flight 175, were crashed into the North and South towers, respectively

2 planes. Flight 11 and 175. 1+7+5 = 13. America's favorite number

Within an hour and 42 minutes, both 110-story towers collapsed.

1+4+2 = 7 = completion

Two 110 story towers. 11 / 11

Debris and the resulting fires caused a partial or complete collapse of all other buildings in the World Trade Center complex, including the 47-story 7 World Trade Center tower, as well as significant damage to ten other large surrounding structures.

47 stories = 11

Damage to 10 other buildings. 10+1 = 11+ twin towers = 13, America's favorite number

A third plane, American Airlines Flight 77, was crashed into the Pentagon (the headquarters of the U.S. Department of Defense) in Arlington County, Virginia, which led to a partial collapse of the building's west side.


The Pentagon started construction to be built on 9/11/61, exactly 60 years prior to the attack. As well as being nicked named "ground zero" due to assumptions it would be the target during a nuclear attack.

The fourth plane, United Airlines Flight 93, was initially flown toward Washington, D.C., but crashed into a field in Stonycreek Township near Shanksville, Pennsylvania, after its passengers thwarted the hijackers.

The one plane that didn't fit the numerical pattern crashed in a place called SHANKsville and didn't make it to its destination.

9/11 is the single deadliest terrorist attack in human history and the single deadliest incident for firefighters and law enforcement officers in the history of the United States, with 343 and 72 killed, respectively.

343 = 1 and 72 = 9
9+1= 1

So how does this relate to anything? Passover and Easter will be on 4/20 weekend. 4/20/19 will be the 130th birthday of Hitler and the 20th year anniversary of the Columbine shootings. It will also be 3 years since that tombstone was put in Central Park with the Jesuit IHS logo in the middle of it.

So you have the 130 which equals 13, 20 which equals 11 and 3. 3 being the number of years since the Easter this tombstone was placed. Easter is about Jesus dying and then 3 days later, rising from the dead. The only plane that didn't fit the numerical pattern on 9/11 (13 and 11) was the number 3. It was headed toward the capital building apparently and it crashed in Shanksville, Pennsylvania due to the people on the plane taking action to stop the hijacking. 1600 Pennsylvania ave is the address of the White House. 1600 = 88 (Trump) which ultimately = 7

One more possible relation to all this. Space X "captured" their space craft named "Dragon" on 12/8 last year.
Dragon completed its first flight around the world 8 years ago today. Since then, Dragon has visited @Space_Station 16 times. Next year, SpaceX will take another important step with an upgraded Dragon capable of returning human spaceflight to the US for the first time since 2011.

8 years ago it took its first flight and its visited the space station 16 times. 8 & 8. It's called "Dragon". They "captured" it at exactly 4:21am, about a minute later, there is lightning and a thunderstorm on Earth that you can see behind the space craft. Easter is April 21st, 4/21.

So who will win todays Superbowl? The god of war or the scapegoat? Lets hope they both forfeit and call a truce because neither outcome could possibly be good for us as a nation.
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[All] Dougie Love Opens The Door - An Unlikely Origin 0f Douglas Jones

(From my article I Need You To Make Another One – An Unlikely Origin of Douglas Jones. This was a wild "what-if" idea that sprang from a #dougieday article on our Facebook page, and then took on a life of its own. Sorry for the length, but I just couldn't edit it down.)
[COOPER] Do you have the seed? Do you have the seed? I need you to make another one. [GERARD] I understand.
With this little exchange, we were given a glimpse into the process for manufacturing a tulpa, this time for making Dougie Jones v2.0. You need a DNA sample (a little hair ripped from the back of your head will do – ouch), a “seed”, and of course, a magician (presuming that Gerard is one). It might also be the case that manufacturing tulpas has to be done in the Lodge space. In her meltdown exposition, Diane says that Bad Cooper took her, the real Diane, to the Convenience Store, where presumably she, the tulpa Diane, was created.
But how does Cooper know this? What exactly has he been up to in the last 25 years, while imprisoned in the Black Lodge? He was not just sleeping, we know that much. Recall that he knew in advance about Freddie Sykes when he shows up at the Sheriff station. Likewise, he seems to already know about Dougie Jones and his family. Even through his catatonic state, Cooper works to systematically right all the wrongs committed by his tulpa counterpart. Now, as he prepares to depart, he wants to make sure that they continue to be looked after in his absence.
The wording of his request could be interpreted that he, not his doppelgänger, was the original requester in the creation of Dougie Jones v1.0. He needs Gerard to make another one for him, just as Gerard made the first one for him. Or, even more intriguing, it could be interpreted that Cooper made the original himself, and he now needs Gerard to make another one either because he’s too rushed for time or because Gerard is back in the Red Room. (Of course, Gerard is also in possession of the seed, but he could have handed that through to Cooper just had he did the Owl Cave ring.)

Coincidence and Fate Figure Largely in Our Lives

So there’s our premise. Good Cooper, not Bad Cooper, made the Dougie Jones tulpa. Yes, I know, we all think that Dougie Jones was manufactured by, or at least for, Bad Cooper. It’s part of his “plan” to not get pulled back into the Black Lodge. Good Cooper swaps bodily with Dougie Jones instead of him, and then he has several layers of hit men lined up to kill Good Cooper immediately after the swap. One of the more straight forward things to be interpreted out of the event of Season 3. However, it is just an interpretation.
Bad Cooper’s “plan” could have been solely related to the glass box in New York. After all, he was supposed to be in New York at the time of the swap, but had to stay in Buckhorn to deal with events there. When Good Cooper is sent to “non-exist-ent” by the Arm’s doppelganger, he is first drawn into the glass box. Bad Cooper is the “anonymous billionaire” behind the glass box and it appears to have been designed as a trap for “some kind of entity that moved … free of the constraints of time and space”, as Agent Preston puts it in The Secret History.
The question we really need to address is why would Agent Cooper need or want to make a tulpa of himself? Well, he’s trapped in the Lodge, unable to interact in the real world. He’s aware though, able to watch events unfolding in the real world, just not able to affect those events directly. Meanwhile, he’s learning to become a magician, or at least fine tuning his own innate abilities. He can do the hand-wavy thing to part the Red Room curtains, he can feel the 4-3-0 boundary, things like that. So maybe he finds out about tulpas (if he didn’t already know from being on the Blue Rose Task Force). He realizes this could be his own loophole in the rules that govern the Lodges.
Maybe Major Briggs helps him in this. Briggs is also moving about in Lodge spaces at this point, hiding and hibernating, but also poking out into the real world at least 15 times over the past 25 years. We know Briggs is aware of Dougie Jones. He somehow swallowed his wedding ring after all. Perhaps he even contributed the “Dougie” part of the name as a nod to his recently (to Briggs) deceased friend and mentor, Douglas Milford. Briggs would be the perfect guy to help set up Dougie Jones’ fake identity in 1997. That is also the year that Bill Hastings started his blog, “The Search for the Zone”, kicking off events that would eventually lead him to be present at the bodily death of the Major. 1997 is also the year that Phillip Jeffries’ hotel room is remodeled and his “Joudy” carving is wallpapered over, covering that trail for all but the most diligent investigator. Multiple plans set in motion in the same year. Coincidence? In Twin Peaks? Yeah right.

A (Brief) History of Tulpas

There are three definite tulpas presented to us in Season 3: Dougie Jones, Diane Evans, and Lois Duffy. Four if you count that there are two versions of Dougie. Lois Duffy is the first tulpa we know of, dating back to 1975, as relayed to Tammy by Albert in the story of the first Blue Rose case.
[ALBERT] Case number one. This started the whole thing. Nineteen seventy-five. Two young field agents investigate a murder in Olympia, Washington. They arrive at a motel to arrest a suspect named Lois Duffy. They hear a gunshot outside her room and kick the door in. They find two women inside, one on the floor dying from a bullet wound to the abdomen. The other holds a gun, which she drops as she backs away when they enter. They recognize the wounded woman as Lois Duffy. She speaks her last words to them: “I’m like the blue rose.” She smiles, then dies, then disappears before their eyes. The other woman screaming in the corner, they now notice is also Lois Duffy.
Lois Duffy, the one that was shot, seems to have known she was a tulpa. She is like the blue rose, a thing that does not occur in nature. The Diane tulpa likewise seems to have known she was a tulpa:
[GERARD] [oddly reverberating] Someone manufactured you. [DIANE] I know. Fuck you.
Dougie, on the other hand, did not seem to know he was a tulpa:
[DOUGIE] I feel funny. What’s happening to me? [GERARD] [oddly reverberating] Someone manufactured you. [DOUGIE] What? [GERARD] For a purpose, but I think now that’s been fulfilled. [DOUGIE] It has?
Why doesn’t Dougie know he’s a tulpa? This exchange between Mullins and the detectives Fusco is also enlightening:
[D. FUSCO] So what’s his background? How long has he been with you? [BUSHNELL] Twelve years now. He’s a good worker. He’s slow, steady. [D. FUSCO] Little more emphasis on the “slow.” [SMILEY FUSCO] [laughing] [BUSHNELL] Dougie had a car accident, as I recall, not long before he came to work for me. Every once in a while, he shows some lingering effects. His wife can talk to that better than I can.
So part of his back story is a bump to the noggin that accounts for his occasional “episodes”, but maybe also accounts for his lack of history. The detectives discover that he has no written records prior to 1997, but maybe he also has no personal memories prior to that as well. From what little we saw of him, Dougie Jones does not seem to have a lick of “Cooper-ness” about him. The Diane tulpa seems to have most of the real Diane’s memories (though a few were perhaps suppressed). She even functioned for some time as a mole in the FBI, working for Bad Cooper. Dougie Jones just doesn’t seem like someone who has memories of living out the first twenty-some years of his life as Agent Cooper. He has no Cooper nurture, but does he have Cooper nature?

He’s a Good Worker

It probably goes without saying, but Bad Cooper is bad, 100%. He’s Agent Cooper’s “shadow self”. The distilled evil version of Agent Cooper. Good Cooper is good, but as we know all too well, not perfectly good. My Life, My Tapes established him as a flawed hero, setting up the “White Knight Syndrome” scenario that would play out in Season 2. Even in the pilot episode though, when he first arrived in Twin Peaks, Cooper could be kind of a jerk. In fact, “jerk Cooper” has been a fun recurring meme theme on the “Dwellers on the Threshold” Facebook group. So what about Dougie Jones?
It’s easy to look at what we know about Dougie Jones and say that he wasn’t a very good person. He gambles and drinks, he cheats on his wife, he’s involved in an insurance scam at work. Not the pure distilled evil of Bad Cooper, more of a low rate, white collar criminal kind of bad. Not the flawed hero of the late 20th century, he’s the anti-hero of the early 21st century (ala Walter White of Breaking Bad). But was he always like this?
One question most of us toyed around with during Season 3 was how the hell did a schlep like Dougie land an attractive, no-nonsense “tough dame” like Janey-E? They’ve been married at least 12 years, pre-dating Dougie’s employment at Lucky 7. They have a son. Dougie’s wedding ring is inscribed “with love”. This marriage is not just a prop. As Good Cooper goes about righting the wrongs in their relationship, he’s not winning her over with well-reasoned arguments and model behavior. He’s stoked the embers of the flame that was already there.
His chance encounter with Bill and Candy Shaker at the Silver Mustang Casino might help us shed a little more light on Dougie’s original character:
[BILL SHAKER] Dougie! Dougie, is that you? It’s Bill Shaker, Allied Chemicals. What, are you taking a walk on the wild side?
Bill and Dougie apparently know each other primarily through a work relationship, though Bill knows him well enough to know where he lives off the top of his head. Bill is surprised to see Dougie Jones in a casino. That’s interesting. Just as someone who knew Agent Cooper would be surprised to find him at a casino (unless under cover, of course). He implies that the Dougie Jones he knows doesn’t have a “wild side” to him.

Look Who’s Back From Bendersville

So it seems like Dougie Jones must have started out more like Good Cooper than Bad Cooper, and then somewhere along the way, maybe only recently, he has been corrupted. Of course, there’s the car accident of 12+ years ago. Something went wrong with his programming after that, and he now has “episodes” and “lingering effects”. That seems to be more about his slowness though, not a tainting of his character from good to bad, and it would predate his more recent slide into “badness” by a lot.
One of the corrupting influences in Dougie’s life would certainly have to be his friend and co-worker Anthony Sinclair:
[ANTHONY] Hey! Look who’s back from Bendersville. [chuckles] With a new haircut. [whispering] I covered for your ass, pal. You owe me big-time for that. What’d you do? Huh? Did you go drinking in a steam bath? [laughing]
They seem to have the casual banter of drinking buddies. As Janey-E later tells Dr. Ben, “the drinking feeds the gambling and vice versa, and the whole thing is just a downward spiral.” Beyond being a bad influence, Anthony is just not a very good person, and in the course of Season 3, we get to see him descend further and further:
[DUNCAN TODD] Do you recall my business rivals and bitter enemies the Mitchum brothers? You’re gonna visit the brothers now. You’re gonna pin the blame for the insurance claim that we conspired to deny for them, a loss of 30 million that hit ’em hard, on the back of Douglas Jones. You’re gonna convince them that Mr. Jones has it out for the brothers, a personal vendetta, and then we’re gonna sit back, and we’re gonna watch as the Mitchum brothers take care of our Mr. Jones problem. [ANTHONY] [clears throat] – But what if. [DUNCAN TODD] Don’t speak, Anthony. If you fail to deliver on this, then you’ll have to kill Mr. Jones yourself.
So Mr. Todd already has an established relationship with Anthony. He used Anthony to commit a little insurance fraud against the Mitchum brothers, and now he’s upgrading him to amateur assassin. Yup, not a very good friend at all.
In fact, the insurance fraud wasn’t limited to just that one claim:
[ANTHONY] [cries] Bushnell I’ve been selling you down the river for months and months for Duncan Todd. I’ve been working for Todd. I, I’ve lied and cheated for money. [BUSHNELL] Anthony, Dougie already showed me. He explained all this already. [ANTHONY] [weakly] He did? [BUSHNELL] Now that you’re confessing, I have to admit that my anger, my contempt for you is subsiding. [ANTHONY] [crying softly] [BUSHNELL] Dougie even implicated himself.
So Dougie was part of the bigger, ongoing insurance scam. He and Anthony were working for Mr. Todd, and Mr. Todd works for Mr. C. Not very many degrees of separation there. Though Mr. Todd doesn’t work for Mr. C so much as he’s made to do things by him. “Never have someone like him in your life,” he tells Roger. It seems that Bad Cooper has some sort of blackmail on him, just as he did on Warden Murphy.
Perhaps the scenario went something like this: the initial scam was just to hurt the Mitchum brothers, then Bad Cooper finds out and makes Mr. Todd continue the operation, while having Anthony bring Dougie Jones on board. Or there are any number of other ways it could have played out. The point is, this whole operation would be a drop in the bucket compared to the rest of Bad Cooper’s billion dollar criminal empire. It’s doubtful he’s having them do it for the money, and it’s even more doubtful that Dougie’s participation is just a coincidence.
One other thing of note from Anthony’s big confession. They’ve only been working this insurance scam for “months and months”, not even a full year. Recall that Dougie had been working for Bushnell for 12 years now. This whole thing, and likely all of his other bad behaviors, would appear to be fairly recent.

Manufactured for a Purpose

In my article Dougie Jones, Inter-dimensional Hitman, I theorized that Dougie Jones’ “episodes” might have been Bad Cooper taking over Dougie’s programming and sending him to perform actions on his behalf. Now we’re trying on the flip side of that story. In this version, Dougie is the instrument of Good Cooper. His “episodes” could be instances of Good Cooper taking control and using his tulpa to accomplish things out in the real world. Maybe this is how some approximation of that BS story of Cole’s happened, with a meeting between Briggs, Cooper and himself being attended by Cooper in proxy (though obviously at a later time).
If the only purpose Dougie Jones serves is to be a trick conduit for Good Cooper to swap with, why start at 1997? Why have him have a family? A job? A life? It’s hard to see how any of that benefits Bad Cooper. If Bad Cooper made him, why have him start out good, then corrupt him in the last year, only to have assassins take him out after the swap? Now if Dougie Jones was manufactured by Good Cooper, and especially if he serves more of a purpose than just a placeholder to swap into, corrupting him could even be part of Bad Cooper’s plans. Corrupting him would be easy too, since he knows Dougie so well (heck, he is Dougie).
Cooper could reasonably expect his doppelgänger to pull some sort of trick during the swap. At the appointed date and time of the swap, Bad Cooper arranged with his little band of thugs to be alone. However, rather than hole up in his hotel room, he is out driving at dangerous speeds with a trunk full of incriminating evidence. He’s nearly killed himself when he temporarily blacks out from the effort of resisting the Black Lodge’s pull. He looks at the car’s clock, and of course it’s 2:53. Why on earth was out he driving at the time of the swap? Was he trying to get killed? Or trying to kill his counterpart should the swap happen between them? Bad Cooper is a planner, he could certainly have had parallel plans in case Good Cooper swapped into either himself or the tulpa.
When Philip Gerard tells Good Cooper “You were tricked”, he could be referring to the disconnected catatonic state he ended up in. That could have been the result of being cast into “non-exist-ent” by the Arm’s doppelganger, or by the switch at the purple power station. He could also simply mean that Bad Cooper didn’t go back in, thanks to some other plan he enacted that we haven’t even seen or connected.
Beyond asking how Dougie managed to land a wife like Janey-E, we have to ask how did he end up specifically a woman who is Diane’s half-sister? There are no coincidences, although at its core, Twin Peaks is a soap opera, and what could be more soap opera-ish? Given what we said above about their marriage being real, it seems unlikely that Janey-E is aware of the bigger picture. I don’t find any credibility in theories that she’s Dougie’s Black Lodge caretaker, or that she and Sonny Jim are also tulpas. In the interpretation where Bad Cooper made Dougie, hitching him to Janey-E is perhaps suggested by tulpa Diane as a dig at the half-sister she hates. Even in that scenario though, how did they actually get the two of them together? Did Dougie gravitate to Janey-E because of Good Cooper’s relationship with Diane? Could it be that simple? If so, then it wouldn’t matter who manufactured Dougie.
What makes anyone think a doppelgänger can even be the template for a tulpa in the first place? He’s not actually human. He has Cooper’s fingerprints, sure. Well, most of them. But maybe he doesn’t have actual DNA. This might help explain how he’s remained off the FBI’s radar for 25 years. He can, however, drag a human into the Convenience Store and have a tulpa version of her manufactured. So Bad Cooper makes Diane, and Good Cooper makes Dougie. Both are their respective first attempts at this new form of magic. Both tuplas have flaws. Diane has repressed memories. Dougie has no memories, though perhaps on purpose, and he has his “episodes”.

With This Ring

One of the enduring mysteries of Season 3 is how, on the day of the swap, Dougie came to be wearing the Owl Cave ring? Now that the Arm has “evolved”, Philip Gerard has stepped in to be the keeper of the ring. Gerard is helping Good Cooper throughout Season 3, and likely in league with Jeffries in his schemes as well, since Ray ended up with the ring in prison. Would Gerard willingly hand the ring over to Bad Cooper? I don’t think so, but even if he would be compelled to by some sort of other worldly logic, would Bad Cooper chance such a near encounter with the Black Lodge? Especially this close to the fruition of his own 25 year long plans? No way. He made Ray put it on just before he shot him, sending the ring back without having to touch it.
The other half of the ring mystery is how Major Briggs got Dougie’s wedding ring (see John Bernardy’s Electricity Nexus #20 for a few theories). If Briggs and Cooper are working together, through Dougie Jones, it might make more sense. Briggs draws Bad Cooper to Buckhorn through Bill Hastings. He sacrifices his body and ascends into the Lodge space permanently. Given his propensity for prognostication, it seems likely he knew this was the end of his physical life. Phillip Jeffries also puts Ray and Darya into play at this time to further distract Bad Cooper and keep him tied down in the area. Away from New York, away from Las Vegas, and away from Twin Peaks.
So we have Philip Gerard, Phillip Jeffries and Major Briggs all acting in apparent coordination, with Good Cooper, and against Bad Cooper. “The game begins” indeed. Does this answer everything about the ring swap mystery? No, not hardly. But it might be a more fruitful basis to start from in developing a theory that does.


The real question at the heart of all of this is whether the original Dougie Jones was templated off Good Cooper or Bad Cooper. For all his faults, Dougie seems to have been a likable guy. Bill Shaker likes him. Bushnell considers him a good worker. Jade thinks fondly of him (“Oh, Dougie” she says, when his hotel key is found). Even though she’s mad as hell at him, Janey-E saved him a piece of cake from the birthday party. He’s the lovable lug that his license plate declares him to be. It’s hard to think that this guy came from the stuff of Bad Cooper. The Diane tulpa, who we know Bad Cooper had a hand in manufacturing, reflects the fingerprint of her creator. It’s the wrongness that Cole can feel when she hugs him. She’s firmly on Team Doppelganger. You don’t get that same feeling about Dougie. Dougie is Good Cooper’s tulpa.
Dougie Jones lived a life that Dale Cooper was denied by his imprisonment in the Black Lodge. He had a family, and most importantly, a home. That home gave Agent Cooper a place to return to while he journeyed back to himself.
[COOPER] You’ve made my heart so full. [JANEY-E] What, what are you saying? [COOPER] We’re a family. Dougie, I mean, I will be back. [JANEY-E] You’re not Dougie? [SONNY JIM] What? No. You’re my dad. You’re my dad. [COOPER] Yeah. I’m your dad, Sonny Jim. I’m your dad, and I love you. I love you both. [JANEY-E [cries softly] [crying] [COOPER] I have to go. You’ll see me soon. I’ll walk through that red door, and I’ll be home for good. [JANEY-E] Don’t go. [COOPER] I have to. [JANEY-E] Whoever you are, thank you.
Love opens the door, and Dougie left that door open for Agent Cooper to come back into the real world. This was the “purpose” he was manufactured for. This is why Bad Cooper was trying to corrupt Doggie. To close that door. This was the “trick” Gerard was referring to, explaining why our Special Agent Cooper only came part way through. But Dougie, with his goofy loud jackets, with his “This is Dougie’s Coffee” mug, with his inherent Cooper nature, he kept that door open wide enough for them both to make it back home.
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2019 1st Update

So I started in dead bedroom sub first and then moved into this sub after realizing where things were headed. The months of Oct to Dec 2018 were a roller coaster for me and her. I made some financial decisions to insure I had money to get an apartment when the time comes. I consulted with an attorney and know best and worst case scenarios - no kids, both have careers, two cars, limited credit card debt, and standard monthly bills.
A walk through the past -
September 2018 - realized what was happening and had a mental crash and burn while away on a reunion trip with some very trusted guy friends. Bottled all that in.
October 2018 - realized while away at hunting camp that I was miserable and unhappy in the marriage and knew where I was with myself and where I wanted to move toward.
I started to set boundaries within my friends circle and assessed why I had them as friends. Most were bandaids for me due to gaps in the marriage. I realized I needed understanding of was it just me or the marriage. I start counseling for me through my work EAP.
November 2018 - The lid comes off Veterans Day weekend and I go to my extended family’s farm for two nights. I found peace. I realized that being away from the marriage gave me peace. That Monday night when I got back - we had our first hard frank discussion. Painful and tearful. She wanted couples counseling but I flat out refused as she walked away from it in 2011 along with her own individual sessions. She said fine call the attorney and let’s do a mediated divorce. Then tearfully please don’t do that. My counselor highlights for me - codependent marriage. I dig in and read and try to understand. Still nothing on her side to go for herself.
December 2018 - get through the holidays. She finally gets to her medical doctor who confirms depression and anxiety resulting in meds. One attempt to go to the counseling center but the office is essentially closed due to the flu. I did confirm that so at least she did try. Calls another office where they aren’t taking new patients until February 2019 and even still hasn’t heard back. Also, even if that does start, it takes time to get into a safe place with a counselor. We continue to have hard talks. At least we are talking. She admits to several key issues and I realized I saw what was going on and didn’t bring them up. I stuffed them or didn’t bring it out the best way.
End of December we take an unexpected two day trip to where we went on our honeymoon. Were there some fun times - yes I admit but it all stemmed from eating out, shopping and wine tasting. The first night was ok. The second night - I couldn’t wait to get to check out.
December 30 was my birthday. I was going to sit and wallow all day in old movies. Then my mind was 1000 mph so I called lets go to the casino as blackjack is one of two things that allows my mind to focus. No gambling addiction and only start with what I’m ok with losing in the end. I go maybe once every 3 to 4 years. She went along and I do think she genuinely wanted to have fun and make it fun for me. We had a great meal together food wise and we ended the evening playing craps. During that, she says she isn’t feeling well. Get home and as we are walking in the house, she says do you mind if I sleep on the couch. With that, I felt crushed. All my hoping that there was hope, bam. Door on foot. Her constant illness complaints have been a running theme since we’ve been together for 25 years and married 24.5. I have independently confirmed with family that this all started in her childhood to get attention.
Due to my career I had to work NYE into NYD. When I wake up the day progresses and we go into the kitchen that evening to get some of my birthday cake. I tell her flat out I need a hard stop to get out of this cycle and off the roller coaster ride. She then starts to offer affection and things do progress with me be a willing participant. The physical edge is a beast. I wake up the next day and all the time at work I’m thinking that was a mistake. Sex isn’t the key or the answer or part of the solution right now. I don’t want to mess with her emotions and give false hopes.
January 2019 - ending her 17 day long paid break, she stays up very late to watch an awards show knowing her first day back to work is the next morning and one of her complaints was always being tired and can’t keep up at work. She had been calling out and staying home days at a time during all of 2018. Again, I’m thinking wow - it’s not gonna change.
I finished reading No More Mister Nice Guy and some legitimate material on codependent relationships. My counselor gave me homework and I know that no one book or study or thought is a fit all mechanism. It did give me insight. I told her the next evening that I’m not your dad, brother, or mother. I’m your husband. I’m no longer going to try and fix anything. I told her it’s up to her. I realize that if I’m unhappy and airing my grievances then I have to make a decision to accept, change, or ignore. I’m changing for me. I won’t accept any longer and I won’t ignore any longer. I have been caught in the FOG loop. Time to get off the proverbial pot.
So I am not Lilly white and I made a big mistake in 2011 bc I’m damaged and have dents. Working on me and I do feel guilt and remorse for hurting her. She stayed but I keep asking why - I don’t know completely why but I feel it’s her reliance on my codependent approach.
So this morning, after having several talks with her parents, her aunt, her cousin, several mutual friends and my parents, I know now that several large issues from her childhood were never dealt with. I’m sorry she had to face them but she’s not gonna be happy herself until she faces them. I know I have to be happy and I want to move forward with my life. Does it suck that a 24.5 year marriage is gonna end - YES. But I’ve told her from the start, before emotions turn to hate or continuing the emotional pain.
Through this, I know I hurt her bad in 2011. Why she stayed, I have my suspicions but no concrete proof. It’s not about that now - it’s about present.
I have an offer to stay at a coworkers place in a stand-alone basement room for a while and I need to work those logistics out today and head there this week. Doesn’t help my work life is going to be really busy the rest of the month but it’s life.
It’s hard when one spouse wants to work on things but I’m not seeing a pathway forward that will do more good than harm for either of us. I know the in house separation just isn’t working because seeing each other, although talking, creates false hope scenarios where physical needs come into play. That’s not fair to either of us and when I wake up dealing with guilt about it - it’s a red flag that the race is over.
I’m dealing with fear of the unknown but we will both be ok. We make good money and I’ve promised her that I know my moral and legal financial obligations will be fulfilled. Her only concern was money.
Just a few side bars -
Even my in-laws see it.
When I asked her what she wanted in the marriage - she said partner. Again - that has a business like meaning and I did clarify with her - she meant lover, best friend ect. I’m gonna respect her intentions but it’s not how she said it.
I’m also gonna switch counselors most likely for long term self care. The one I’ve been seeing is ok, but available appointments are few and I don’t feel it’s a gelling. I’m not looking for anyone to be in my corner to make me feel good. The last two long term counselors challenged me and forced me to deal with my issues. They both left the practice for their own family reasons.
Through all this - I really wanted her to come out swinging. I was hoping to hear your an asshole. I was hoping she throw my flaws out. Whatever - I was hoping like hope. I know there is still love for each other but before that erodes completely - lets get through this as amicably as possible.
Thanks for reading and I will continue to provide relevant updates.
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Stuff to Do in Tucson: July 2015 (Holiday edition!)

Greetings! It's the JULY 2015: HOLIDAY EDITION of the Stuff to Do in Tucson thread! Use this post to tell us where all the cool (or even not so cool) fireworks shows for the 4th of July are going to be held!
Use this sticky post to collect general stuff going on around town (including Tucson's surrounding areas) in JULY. You can still start new posts about an event, especially if you need help planning something. This will just serve as an easy reference. The end of June can be found at the top of the list.
Comment with the details (date, time, location, admission fee, age restrictions, etc.) about any July event/gathering/get-together that you think people may be interested in and I'll update the text of the main post so people can easily see what's going on.
Examples of good stuff to tell us about include:
And more!
Anything advertising any specific product or anything illegal will be removed.
Romo Tonight - at The Flycatcher - 9PM - 21+
Tuesday Night Classics: Apocalypse Now - Harkins Theatre - 5455 S Calle Santa Cruz - 7PM - $5
Crafternoon (crafts for kids and families) - at the Mission Branch Library - 3770 S Mission Rd. - 2PM-3:30PM
Couch to 5k (C25k) running/training program (and every Thursday thru Sept. 9) - starting at the north end parking lot of Hi-Corbett - 6-7PM - free
Casino del Sol's 21st Birthday FIREWORKS EXTRAVAGANZA! - AVA Amphitheater - 8:30PM - free
JULY 4: Independence Day
Tuesday Night Classics: Top Gun - Harkins Theatre - 5455 S Calle Santa Cruz - 7PM - $5
  • Family Tie Dye - at Sahaurita Library - 2PM-4PM - reservation required
  • Summer Safari Nights - at the Reid Park Zoo - 6PM-8PM - $9 Adults/$7 Seniors/$5 Children ages 2-14
Tuesday Night Classics: Saving Private Ryan - Harkins Theatre - 5455 S Calle Santa Cruz - 7PM - $5
Archer Trivia Night - at Playground - 278 E Congress St. - 8PM-10PM - $5/person
Dancing with the Stars: Live! - In the Tucson Music Hall - doors at 6:30PM - tickets $38.50 – $58.50
JULY 17-19
Camp Fangamer video game convention - at Hilton Tucson East - 7600 E Broadway Blvd. - $50 for weekend tix
Tucson Bonsai Society's Monthly Meeting - Catalina United Methodist Church, Building H, Room 230 - 12PM-4PM - see website for program info
Tuesday Night Classics: The Karate Kid - Harkins Theatre - 5455 S Calle Santa Cruz - 7PM - $5
Friday Night Live! at Main Gate Square - Geronimo Plaza, btw Park Ave and Euclid Ave on University Blvd - 7:30PM - free
  • Cool Summer Nights: Creatures of the Night - at the Arizona - Sonora Desert Museum - 2021 North Kinney Rd. - 5PM-10PM - General Admission (18-64) $19.50/Seniors (65+) $17.50/Youth (13-17) $15.50/Children (4-12) $6/Kids 3 and under free
  • BBW Meetup - 11AM - locations vary so check Facebook group
  • KMKR Summer Party Series: Phill Rockman, 8Bit Agent, Spacecase & Mumble - at Xerocraft - 101 W. 6th St. - 7PM-10PM - donation appreciated (all funds raised go towards construction of Tucson's newest radio station, KMKR 100.1FM) - all ages
  • Screening of Stanley Kubrick's Fear and Desire - Museum of Contemporary Art - 265 S. Church Ave. - 8PM-10PM - free
Romo Tonight - at The Flycatcher - 9PM - 21+
Tuesday Night Classics: The Usual Suspects - Harkins Theatre - 5455 S Calle Santa Cruz - 7PM - $5
SkyNights at UA Mt. Lemmon SkyCenter - 9800 East Ski Run Rd - starts around 3PM - $60 Adults , $30 Youth (7-17 yrs) includes a light dinner
Geeks Who Drink - different venues every day
  • Monday - Dante's Fire - 8:00 PM / NEW Eclipse Sports Grill 7:00 PM
  • Tuesday - Hotel Congress - 8:00 PM
  • Wednesday - The Auld Dubliner - 8:00 PM / Trident Grill - 8:00 PM / NEW Playground Bar & Lounge - 7:30 PM
  • Thursday - Aloft Tucson University - 7:30 PM (Starts Thursday, Sept 4th) / Bumsted's - 8:00 PM / The Canyon's Crown Restaurant & Pub - 8:00 PM
  • 90s House Party - Hotel Congress - 9PM-2AM - free cover - $0.90 drinks - 21+
  • Laughs and Draughts (Open mic comedy & draught beer specials) - at The Flycatcher - 10PM - 21+
  • Make Your Own Bloody Mary Bar (sometimes with live music) - Hotel Congress - 10AM-2PM
  • Juggling Club - at Himmel Park, near the library - 6PM
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